Things are really complicated with my family life right now. It's too difficult to explain, so I'm not even going to try. I wish we could just find a way for everybody to be happy.
Speaking of the avenues to happiness that I seek in a polyamorous relationship, this blog post from a fellow secondary outlines some of the possibilities and challenges we're going through:
"A Poly Page for Secondaries - Joy and Satisfaction" - Aug. 28, 2008